tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937335840707686978.post8744463784146358333..comments2023-05-31T10:40:54.774-05:00Comments on Mother Moon: Truth #2 - To Love ThyselfMother Moonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04766732525579692530noreply@blogger.comBlogger10125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937335840707686978.post-56299132315357282672010-11-17T00:55:10.849-06:002010-11-17T00:55:10.849-06:00That was such a wonderful read! Truly, I wanted to...That was such a wonderful read! Truly, I wanted to be you there for a few moments.<br /><br />I used to love all the little things of life also. However, I have really had a rough life right from about 3 months old on. The unfair part is that I'd get a few good years (not great, never great) and I'd be happy, and think to myself; "I finally got rid of my "Charlie Brown" cloud"...only to have another big crash come, followed by a few years of nothing but bad...seriously people who know us, say all the time, "if it wasn't for bad luck, you guys wouldn't have any luck at all". Some of the Bad crashes were worse than other, like the summer of 2001, when hubby had a massive heart attack on father's day morning, followed by a 2nd one within 5 days, then double bypass surgery, while recovering in the heart hospital, I ended up with one of my lovely kidney stones moving, and we got a phone call from Florida that my mom was rushed to the hosp. with chest pain...she did NOT have a heart attack, but catherization showed that all of her coronary arteries were block, she had to have 5 bypasses. Then my Best friend...my white Sheppard "Honey" got ill. Hubby was home now, I was trying to flush my stone, mom was still in the hospital. The dog was being treated as if it was a bladder infection, and things weren't getting any better. hubby would be out of work til mid sept. I was not working except for per diem, and now with the stone, i wasn't working due to pain meds. and caring for Ron. Mom went home. My sister flew down to help with her for a week. While there, my mom collapsed. apparently the hospital discharged her with 2 different BP meds instead of one, so her BP was way too low. luckily they caught it and fixed her up and sent her home. We found out my dog did not have an infection, there was a huge tumor enveloping her entire bladder and one of the ureters (tube from kidney to bladder. She was put down 8/10/01. The next day we get another call from florida, one of the long full leg incisions (where they harvested a vein for her bypass) was infected...back to the hospital.(in the mean time NONE of our bill companies would work with us, about Hubby and I not working, and we had to file bankruptcy)<br /><br />Then 9/11/01 happened.<br /><br /> and that is how things go for us. so after graduating college in 2000, and finally starting a F/T position in MRI in 2002. (rather than the per diem x-ray positions I held) things were looking up. Now i did have bad knees and neck issues already from a serious car wreck years before, but in 2005 I got injured on the job...seriously. I became permanently disabled after only working in my field 5 years, after going back to school later in life, and taking on student loans, so my hubby could retire on time. now, he HAS to stay working, he is 69.<br />and so it goes...it has made me bitter and a bit cynical. I am afraid I REALLY have to push myself to see anything good. While happiness, is just a dream I hope to achieve yet again sometime in my life. I have some moments each day where my son's dog will make me laugh, or having my kittie on my lap makes me feel loved. But I have a long way to go. I long for the day I have a grandchild.<br />My kids are girl-28, boy-24.5, girl-23.<br />all single, oldest graduating college in May after many years of changing her mind, and is planning on immediately going to graduate school. my son is a far way from grown-up and has ADHD and ODD, has given up on meds and/or counseling. and my youngest is a workoholic...so no grandbabies in my near future.<br /><br />we have always had a vegetable garden, but the past 5 years hubby has only worked it 2 years out of the five and on a much smaller scale.<br /><br />I think we are both feeling rather defeated. I am trying to help myself with these 30 days of truth and journaling.<br /><br />Great luck to you and all your endeavors.<br /><br />SusanSusanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04623256635644408139noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937335840707686978.post-28666969341069007182010-11-15T09:44:31.220-06:002010-11-15T09:44:31.220-06:00Oh I love this simple, sharing post! It speaks vo...Oh I love this simple, sharing post! It speaks volumes...<br /><br />I think the one thing I love most about myself right now is embracing Cronehood and being a Grandmother...it is so different than how I had imagined it. There truly is something magickal about our Wee Ones that bring the best out in us!<br /><br />Thank you for such a Blessing in reading your words Janie!!!AkasaWolfSonghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04128887650617351563noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937335840707686978.post-5058687190756844422010-11-14T13:04:35.294-06:002010-11-14T13:04:35.294-06:00This is a lovely post and says so much about what ...This is a lovely post and says so much about what a wonderful person you are. I had to chuckle when I came to the part about working in your garden. I was much the same...never could wear gloves. My hands were generally sliced up from weeding, but everything had to be natural.<br />Marymxtodis123https://www.blogger.com/profile/13583200601379394225noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937335840707686978.post-44821388251881255702010-11-13T15:35:26.377-06:002010-11-13T15:35:26.377-06:00This is something that I have struggled with for y...This is something that I have struggled with for years. I have a hard time being satisfied and happy with myself, much less loving myself. I work at it. And I find that sad, the fact that I have to work at loving myself. It's not that there aren't plenty of great things about me. It's that I am too much of a perfectionist. I always see what I need to improve, not what I have accomplished. If that makes any sense. <br /><br />Since getting braeden's diagnosis this has been even harder for me. I struggle daily with feeling inadequate, being depressed and blaming myself. <br /><br />Thank you for the reminder that I need to work even more towards this ultimate goal.Tracy DeLucahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11741412524412723632noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937335840707686978.post-38336994305664875992010-11-13T08:47:23.024-06:002010-11-13T08:47:23.024-06:00It takes a wise person to be able to love the quie...It takes a wise person to be able to love the quiet beauty of the earth, children and life in general. Thank you for all your gifts you so generously share.Wendyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05078434289667660306noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937335840707686978.post-89890800615114480522010-11-13T08:18:59.640-06:002010-11-13T08:18:59.640-06:00This is another beautiful post, Janie. You have a...This is another beautiful post, Janie. You have a gift for writing. You seem to be able to put your feelings down on paper in a cohesive way that reads smoothly and easily and certainly gets the point across.<br />Your giving nature must be because you have this love of self and definitely love for others. <br />I enjoyed reading this ~ your words always make me stop and ponder on my blessings. Thank you, Janie.<br />♥ audreyaudreyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00168952379230860627noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937335840707686978.post-31905248161948077272010-11-12T18:50:58.837-06:002010-11-12T18:50:58.837-06:00What a wonderful, genuine post. I think a person ...What a wonderful, genuine post. I think a person truly has to love themselves to be brave enough to do these 30 Posts of Truth.Teresahttp://edenhills.wordpress.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937335840707686978.post-5055985439634238542010-11-12T12:51:06.647-06:002010-11-12T12:51:06.647-06:00Beautiful, loving post, giving us something to thi...Beautiful, loving post, giving us something to think about for our individual lives.<br /><br />Your writing is moves easily and brings comfort and words of encouragement.<br /><br />Thank you.the wild magnoliahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14355836751549469688noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937335840707686978.post-60922646586886264722010-11-12T09:14:58.932-06:002010-11-12T09:14:58.932-06:00~so gracefully written with truth in each word...s...~so gracefully written with truth in each word...so many do not realize the abundance that sits before them waiting to be seen and appreciated...may you always be filled with l♥ve...for both great and small...within you and upon you...your eyes are open and it is apperant to all who come here and visit...you spread and share your blessings daily and help others to think and see! much l♥ve and light upon you and yours~brandihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16319756453755628466noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2937335840707686978.post-66099250803847754752010-11-12T09:12:37.515-06:002010-11-12T09:12:37.515-06:00That is not a hard question for me anymore. The t...That is not a hard question for me anymore. The thing I love about myself is my dedication to my family. You are so right about the little treasures. I have a husband of 20 years who is my best friend and my greatest fan, a 17 year old daughter sprouting into adulthood and a 5 year old son that is so happy to explore the world. No matter what else goes wrong around me this is where I belong. Oh I will also have to mention that I have also had the pleasure of assisting my Weeping Willow in its growing cycles she keeps me grounded.<br />Once again thank you so much for your messages they help me look into myself and see the goodness!Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06000223877502634308noreply@blogger.com