As life continues to venture by for me I am subtlety reminded of the changes that occur. When I take the time to slow and look, I see that life is forever going on. Sometimes it even goes on without me, or so it seems. I guess that is what happens as we enter the later parts of our lives.
I have never found much pleasure in participating in the rat race of day to day events. Although I have timelines that need to be adhered to and deadlines that have to be monitored I dislike the feeling of going 90 miles a minute just to be sure that I complete all the things on my list. Yes I have been busy these last months, but it has been a different kind of busy. At times the busy work has even been somewhat enjoyable.
Each year, like many others, I try to choose a word that could best describe my outlook for the coming year and how I would like to incorporate that action into my day to day life. Thinking on my word for this year I am not quite sure of my choice. The word that I continue to come back to somewhat scares me to tell the truth. However I have learned that it is an action that although it may hold an aurora that can make some grimace, it also can be a positive action as well.
The word that I speak of is change. It is easy to grow content in our little piece of the world. We shy away from venturing out and entering into things or places that may not make us feel as comfortable or at home. I think this is something I have done over the last few years and although at times it has been quite enjoyable, it has also hindered me from many things.
Little by little the last couple months I have seen a light that calls to me. It shines from a place that I would not consider a comfort zone for me, yet it still beckons me to go to it. I have to say that it does intrigue me and in some ways even excites me. It would demand that I go into areas that will require some things from me that I may find a bit of a struggle at first yet they are all things I know that I can do and that in the end I would be glad that I did push myself in such a fashion.
It is the procrastination that I need to battle the most. I am one of those who is sometimes easily detoured from a rabbit that may be hopping by. Honestly I think it is an excuse to focus on something else. I think this year may be the year that I finally get off my butt, so to speak, and finally do a few of the things that I have been meaning to tackle for many years. It will most definitely be a change for me, but a good change indeed. Wish me luck.