For some time now, I have felt a strong need to organize... clean.... prioritize... All those words somewhat describe my inner feelings yet none quite exact. These are usually urges that are strongest in the spring as new growth and birth come about, yet here it is the beginning of fall and I can not seem to shake them.
I will admit that for the last year my schedule has been somewhat askew to say the least. The grandkids have moved out of state. No longer do I have the joy of watching them 3 days a week. Vince's work has slowed considerably and he is home much more than before. This in itself has changed my schedule significantly. I do not have the leisure of time as I had before.
Yet despite this I have a strong feeling to gather myself and get myself in order. I know the importance of tending to oneself. I understand that one can not truly give the best they have to others if they do not first give to themselves. I feel myself yearning for silence & solitude. Just quiet moments alone. It is as if a change is near.
I welcome change, although I will admit that it often brings some discomfort. Usually nothing that is dire just discomfort in a nusiance sense. It is always so much easier to stay in our comfort zone where we know what to expect and what to do. Yet with change comes new opportunities, new adventures.... I am not quite sure what this will all bring, at least that is what I am currently telling myself. I feel it will bring more work, more discipline, tighter routines. Yet I have had a nice break.
Yes, I know I am rambling.... and yes, I know that I may have not said anything of sense, yet it is comforting to know that I can do just that and my friends will listen and when felt led they will give me their counsel and words of wisdom...