After all these years, I am still involved in the process of self-discovery. It's better to explore life and make mistakes than to play it safe. Mistakes are part of the dues one pays for a full life.
Many of you read my post last Thursday when my subject manner was honesty. Normally I post a short quote and at times a brief add on. However this last week my post was a bit longer than that. A situation had occurred in my life which brought hurt feelings my way. I wrote about this experience in a hope that it would help to clear my energy and help me to release the negative feelings that I was generating.
Half our mistakes in life arise from feeling where we ought to think, and thinking where we ought to feel.
--John Churton Collins
As time progressed though the individual whom I had had the disagreement with communicated with me that this was far from their intention. In retrospect, I considered deleting the post yet decided against it as it was a part of my evolution and therefore should not be taken away nor should I be ashamed of it, especially if I had learned the lesson that I was suppose to learn from it.
Every truth has two sides, it is as well to look at both before we commit ourselves to either
Although my perspective was just that, my perspective it was not the only perspective that was seen. I still have the emotion to this issue although I have been able to see it in a broader spectrum; yet it came to a point of agreeing to disagree at least for now as it is still a tender subject matter to discuss between us. I have always been aware that there is more than one side to any situation and often many; yet there are times when frustration and anger can cloud that knowledge from us.
Experience is simply the name we give our mistakes
I guess in a way I am writing this for much the same reason I wrote the other post… to release it from me and move on. To the person who shares this situation with me, know I love you… know that I do not do or say the things I do as a means to hurt or control you… know that communication between us is the most important thing to me and although I may be way more honest at times then I should be, do not expect me to change. I lived in the shadows of secrets when I was young and well into my adult life. It is a place that I do not wish to revisit. It is my hope that in time we will look back with smiles for the lessons and the closeness we received from this experience.