Recently on scanning through the multitude of blogs that I am behind in reading, I came across one that twinked me and got me to thinking. Because I was further behind in reading then I dare like to admit, the topic was repeated. I soon found that there were several others who had chosen to take on this challenge and soon I found myself interested in it as well.
I am speaking of the 30 days of Truth blogs that have been sprouting up here and there. I first saw it over at Fairies Sage who stated in her first day of Truth that she found it from Pamela at Sweet Soliloquies who in turn found it from The Karma Project. The premise is to write about the topic in question each day, week, which ever one chooses yet to be truthfully honest about it. A bit harder than it sounds if you really are honest... The full list of 30 topics can be found on The Karma Project - 30 Posts of Truth.
I have decided to participate in this endeavor mainly because I think it could be interesting and when one delves into oneself one is always bound to learn something new. I have chosen yet to do my 30 days of Truth as a weekly post each Friday. Here goes:
Truth #1 - Something You Hate About Yourself
Interesting way to start it all off... I try hard not to hate anything really.. I have always found hate to be such a strong word and felt that it brings such a negative aire with it. Yet if I were to change that to Something I dislike about myself that is a different matter.
I am an introspective kind of a person... Being a quiet child and a watcher it gave me plenty of time to sit back and examine things including myself... Sometimes I truly dislike the fact that I do overthink. As being a thinker, it can also lead me to over think some things. I find myself at times taking situations and because I ponder on them at times for a lengthy time, I tend to hold myself back from possibly doing or saying something that should have been done much sooner than I eventually do.
I have learned some valuable lessons with this "trait" over time. As in anything it has its positives and its negatives. It also enables me to look at a situation from more than just my perspective and therefore possibly see sides that are not like my own. Over time it has taught me to not be too lofty in my thoughts that my view is the only view... Believe me I still have a strong voice if there is something that I feel strongly about yet it has softened it somewhat. Although there may be some that do not agree with that. If they only knew the wrath of my Scorpio way in the true light they would realize just how true that statement is.
I am learning to come to a humble medium with this part of myself that in the beginning I felt was a good trait and yet in time learned that it has (as does all things) its negative side. I try to find the good in the negative as I feel it is always there. And although something may seem like it is not that pleasant tasting the effects of it may prove to be something that brings forth the exact thing that one needs. So although I dislike the fact that I over think things at times... I am also grateful that I do, for that added time that I have given some situations have proven to be the time I needed to see the truth come to light. If I had reacted rather than responded I would have eaten much more crow in my life.. And I can attest that it is not a pleasant taste to have to swallow.