Friday, January 8, 2010

Have You Ever ........


Have you ever felt like there was something that you were suppose to be doing... Yet you are just not for sure what that something is.... it is pulling at your soul... you can feel it but you are  just not getting the message clear enough so that you can complete it.... Well.... that is somewhat what I have felt like this past week.... I know the signs that I have been given... And for the most part I trust the path that I feel has been set forth... I guess what it is more than anything is that I worry about the little things... you know the things that really would not make that much difference but since I am somewhat of a perfectioness.... or maybe it is that I just want to make an excuse for procrastinating.... See already I am making excuses....


What is it that keeps us from taking that step off the cliff to free fall into all what life has to offer us.... Fear?  probably.... it can be a very powerful thing you know.... Fear of failure... Fear of success..... sound silly? well really it isn't when you think about it a little.... Although I do know that I am gettin up there in age... Not that I feel age effects what I feel led to do much... it is still just another lame excuse not to do it.....

Ramblings seem to be all that come from me this week... Nothing of real clarity  at least probably not to those of you who have taken the time to read this.... I thought maybe if I put it down to words that somehow I could come a bit more clear with it... I think I am going to blame it on the cold temperatures and just say that it is a case of the brain freeze... And after this weekend when the tempertures come a bit closer to what is said to be normal I will likewise be back to my normal self.... Full of energy and all the answers that I need to make my life complete.... We could only hope for such an easy solution.... if only....

With those wise words, I leave you with a wish for a grand weekend filled with warmth and lots of fulfillment.... Have a good one....

16 comments:

Judith said...

I know that feeling....it often wakes me up at night... but I know, if it's a real path to follow..the signs would be clear..so I wait.

mxtodis123 said...

Perfectly normal feelings. I've been through them many times. Even now, some days I feel lost. I loved your ramblings this week. I listen to everything you have to say. Glad to hear your temperatures will be moderating some. We're in for a mighty cold weekend here in the northeast. Wish I didn't have to go food shopping tomorrow, but we have to eat.
Mary

Laura said...

i completely understand what you mean about feeling like you are supposed to be doing something and about the fear
i hope you have a glorious weekend and that you figure out what it is you are supposed to be doing

blessings
~*~

faerwillow said...

~you are not alone in your ramblings...i many times, moments sit with a stirring feeling as to what i need to be doing...and allow fear to inhibit me from moving forward...taking a step...i wish you less restlessness and love your thought as to maybe it being brain freeze! not an excuse...mere reality in the cold you are enduring...may your energy return and send you out to accomplish all which has been left undiscovered ...brightest blessings and bright wishes for a wonderful weekend~

Olde Baggs n Stuft Shirts by LindaOma said...

I too have those exact feelings. But instead fear, I usually feel guilty for having wasted time, life, intentionality....yada yada yada. But I do so understand. I must say I don't think you are rambling, I feel like there is a purpose to your words. Like the others have said here, I read them and in one way or another, you affect me. It all about the ripple effect. Drop a pebble in the center of a pond and watch the ripples reach all the way to the edges. We just don't know how we will affect someone....no ramblings only good thoughts my dear.
the word is seacchan....a very cold sailor trying to explain a seachant.....I know reaching huh?

magicalmusings said...

Yes I feel that off and on as well. I really wonder sometimes how long it's supposed to take to have a clear path. I tend to over analyze as well and so I try something and if it isn't successful I think it's the wrong path you know?

Emme Toaye said...

Trust your instincts, I am sure they have helped you before as they will again and again. Maybe this is just a time of reflection for you which is forcing you to look around you more slowly than you usually do. It's like swirling smoke when you try to grasp it with your hands, but it's still there waiting for you. Wishing you the best of the best on your journey.

Renee said...

Guilty as charged. This is me at any given moment.

xoxo

OleCrowsNestJournal_Nan said...

I believe life is purposeful. Sometimes our purpose is right in front of us and it is more simple than we have realized. I think the word simple is a really good word.
It's like cleaning out your closet...Let's say you feel you need to clean out clutter in your closet. Maybe it won't leave your mind ...Your feelings could be urging you to take action to clean out your closet..so that you may fufill your purpose of providing for others by way of giving to your local thrift shop or women's shelter etc.
Mindfulness helps your mind get clarity. Doing one thing in the moment fully. By observing just noticing and the describing put words on finally to participate using your wise mind.
Take care now and have a great day!

Bella Foxglove said...

I know that feeling all to well...and the calling has been pretty strong, especially since the turn of the year.

My downfall is also in being a procrastinator, my energy levels have been taxed something awful the last couple of months and I am still trying to find my way out of that spiral...

Rambling is still good, I seem to do it a lot, but sometimes you have to get those broken and disjointed musings out of the way so the other stuff can come through!

I love the pic up top, very lovely!

Bogaman said...

Sounds like anxiety. Lots of stuff can contribute to it. You have mentioned a few. Meditation helps me. Also use the herb, St. Johns Wort. Definately stay away from the prescribed meds.,also Caffeine and Nicotine. X.

Sparkless said...

For me I've been feeling like that for a very long time. It's not fear that has me stumped it's not knowing what to do. If I could see a path I'd take it but for now it's all just a big black area.

Morgaine Pendragon said...

Oh you're not alone. I know all too well the feeling that I am supposed to be doing something and not knowing what it is. Or the feeling that you sort of know what it is but you are afraid to take the steps needed to do it or in my one case the finances to do it.

I think like most said, sit and wait if you aren't clear. It will come in time and when it does you will know.

Bright Blessings to you, stay warm, and stay true to your path.

Rue said...

I'm like Linda - I feel as though I've wasted so much time with things that weren't important. I know every step is part of the journey, but I don't want to miss anything!

Looks like you are in good company with all the commenters here!

Love and hugs!

Ryan Sutton said...

At the very least, by posting, you've enabled others to open up about their own experiences, and know that they (and you) are not alone in this.

Bridgett said...

I have that fear. I've long said I want to be a writer...but when the time comes to actually sit down and write, I can't.

It's definitely fear related. Probably fear of failure because I've been told so many times I should write for a living...I can't let everybody (myself included) down. Does that makes sense?