I feel as if it has been forever since I wrote anything with any meat in it. Mind you I do not mean to make little of the post I have done recently on the Relief efforts and needs of those in Haiti or the announcement of the winner of my giveaway. I just long to write something that dives down into the thick of things and pulls out some really precious pieces.
I have for some time now been longing for spring. In a strange sense this is my first year to truly fully express and observe my true beliefs. Although I have had them for the majority if not all of my life, I have not always given myself 100% to them or to the recognition of them and what they truly mean. Fear possibly is what kept me from doing so in most cases, yet I feel that this is not a very valid excuse so I will just say that my journey has finally brought me to this point. It seems since I have started this blog it was if I opened the windows and front door of myself and allowed all to be seen and to also welcome all that may want to come visit. It has been a true enlightening experience and I am amazed at times at the speed that some lessons are learned and at times the feeling that they were always there just hidden deep inside of me until I was ready to bring them forth.
As the new year started last November at the the eve of Samhain, I could feel the stir in me. More than I have ever felt in past times. It was a tremendous urge of excitement as to what was to come in the times to follow. The quietness and self reflection which it brought shortly after somewhat startled me as I saw things that I thought I had already dealt with yet realized that they were still areas of my life that needed discipline as well as more training. Although honestly can we ever know enough. I am happy that I have always been eager to learn any thing that may be there to soak in. I feel it only broadens ones mind and clarity of the things that surrounds them. It was never said that one needs to agree with all they hear, yet a different perspective can sometimes help you to see your perspective in a much clearer light.
As January moves on and Imbolc is short behind, I can feel the urge growing inside me still. The waxing moon is out in all its beauty. With its constant growth each night on its way to showing its full face, I can feel the energy. I too feel like I am growing. Preperation for the coming seasonal change is beginning. Seeds, peat pots, and soil have been purchased for the planting of the herbs and flowers that I will plant this spring; a task I will take on this weekend. I have read many posts today where some are lucky enough to even have the tops of their daffodils peeking through the ground eager also to come out and welcome the warmer weather.
Yet I know that patience is still something that is needed. It is not a time to rush what is slowly evolving in all of us this time of year. It is a time to allow it to envelope us slowly, so that it can fully penetrate us and fill each crack and crevice of our being. It is a time for us to open ourselves up to all that is about to unfold for each of us. It is a time for us to listen to the still quiet words that are spoken to us and to learn from the lessons that we are being taught. This will then prepare us for Imbolc as well as for Beltane and on.
I thank all of you for your gifts of wisdom thru your words as I beleive that each of us has a purpose here in blogland if only for one individual to be moved. I thank you also for the simple support and encouragement and yes love that I feel from many of you each day, not only in your posts yet also in the comments that are left behind after a visit. I want you all to know that my door truly is always open to any of you.
I am not sure if this was actually a meatier post... just some words and feelings that I had on my heart that I needed to let out and share. Blessings to all